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Whoa..LJ Update [Sep. 9th, 2014|01:55 pm]
FLaN
WOW Blast from the Past..... Made a Livejournal Entry but it's Private. If you want to see it, log on.
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(no subject) [Sep. 27th, 2005|11:36 pm]
FLaN
I'm moving into my new apartment this Saturday. 1200 a month (among 3 people) in a Jewish neighborhood. Not bad... not bad at all. Even though utilities aren't covered at all, there's a laundromat and several restaurants nearby. Poly students also live on the floor above us, which is pretty cool. And one of them is my Computer Architecture TA so that's even better. ALSO, the D and F trains are nearby so that's a plus. Overall, I think we chose a great place to stay in, despite the appearance when we got it. But if we spruce the place up, it'll look really good. Pics will probably be up... that's if I feel like putting them up.

Okay, I'm out...laters.
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2005|01:54 am]
FLaN
Bored so decided to make an update.

I sometimes sit down and realize how many bad decisions I have made in my life. I have made QUITE a number of them.

Let's see... I can remember my life in grade school. I was so afraid of socializing with people. Despite the fact that most of the people were jerks, I knew there were a couple of people there who were actually cool people and were willing to be my friend. The problem is I was so anti-social and for some reason, I couldn't stand their company. I had a friend here and a friend there but most of the time, I would find myself being alone. And for some reason, I didn't find anything wrong with this. It was very depressing now that I realize this because I know that I could have made some GREAT friends, but my decision to be anti-social prevented me in doing so.

High school comes and I learned to be a bit social. Most of the time, I would hang out with different people in order to find that clique I can hang out with. Fortunately, I found that special group of friends that would currently be some of the best friends that I have today. I had some awesome memories with them. True, there was some drama here and there but overall, I wouldn't trade what I experienced for the world. I did regret my preference for women though. I was the type of guy that sought to get what I couldn't have. I guess it was because my naivete got the best of me. And that's probably why I have no self-confidence... All those rejections made me fail to see that it's not because I'm not a likeable person but it was simply not meant to be.

I was such an idiot back then and I still believe that currently, I didn't get any smarter. I decided to go to Poly just for the mere fact that they gave me a free ride. I read reviews on the college and it didn't seem bad at all. Little did I know, the school turns out to be the biggest shithole ever created. The campus is made up of TWO buildings..in almost all colleges, they have more cafeterias than that. I can complain all I want about the professors, most of the people, the stupid stuff we're learning but the matter of the fact is that I shouldn't have went to this school. I have met some cool people in Poly, two people that stand out (well, one does but I'm not so sure about the other one). But if I went to another school, I would have experienced a REAL college life and maybe meet that girl I have been waiting for. But right now, I can only see myself trapped in the metal combines of Poly, waiting for that day of graduation so I can move on with my life.

I realize no one is perfect, but I honestly believe I have a knack of making bad decisions. I sometimes think I'm kinda fcked up in the mind. Or maybe I'm just scared of what life might present me. Or maybe I'm just simply a moron. Either way, I'm not happy with my life and I know it's because of the decisions I make. I guess I have to toughen it out and look forward for more opportunities to improve my life.

C'est la vie...
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2005|01:24 am]
FLaN
School begins this Thursday. I actually can't wait for school to begin because I'm bored out of my mind in my house. Poly sucks so much.

Summer 2005 ... it has been quite a ride.
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(no subject) [Aug. 15th, 2005|12:50 am]
FLaN
I'm really bored and I can't sleep so here's an entry.

Well, my summer has been very exciting. Let me try to recap EVERYTHING that has happened...

- Trip to Florida
- Trip to Washington DC
- Numerous late nights at Scott's house playing board games
- Drinking game involving Mario Party (I got sooo drunk that I was afraid I was going to die from alcohol poisoning)
- Playing mad poker games, and winning them too :O
- Canoe Trip in Cedar Creek
- Hiking Trip in Bear Mountain
- Playing Basketball Games in New Jersey every Wednesday
- Getting high at Chris' party

There's probably alot more but I don't remember at the moment. There has been only one downer this whole summer and involved this girl who has ignored me throughout the whole summer. Maybe things will get better as school starts. All I know is that she hasn't really spoken to me at all and that I care for her alot, perhaps more than she realizes. Why she ignored me, I might never know but we were close friends before school ended. This confused me and made me depressed at the same time. I don't know what to do anymore...

School's just around the corner and I have yet to find an apartment to live in. Argh......
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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2005|12:06 am]
FLaN
Life isn't meant to be taken serious; if you do, it's like arguing with a bunch of idiots - at the end, you'll realize it's not worth the trouble.
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2005|03:22 pm]
FLaN
Just felt like saying this.

Stickball > Dodgeball
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(no subject) [Feb. 25th, 2005|11:36 pm]
FLaN
WTF is with the snow?

Yea, my life has been alright. Nothing too exciting happened because it is the middle of the school year. The end of the school year should be crazy. Yea, basically I've been paying most of my attention to my school and my job. I've been trying to maintain my GPA. Right now, I only had a test in my Intro. to Circuits class. I got a 100 on that shyt.

I've been worried about my future lately. I had a recent conversation with some of my friends at Poly and it got me thinking: will I really get a job in the future? My grades are really good at all but we'll there be jobs for engineers in the near future? I've been working my ass off lately and I hate to see all that work go to waste. I am aiming for a Masters too but I still don't think that will be good enough. The thing is I don't want just any job...I want a job that pays well. I want to be really successful, not just making an average income. I don't know. Maybe I'm setting my expectations too high. In any case, I don't really see that happening since the current situation for engineers is bad. I hope it'll improve but I don't really see that happening.

Well, I'm definitely getting my own apartment next semester. Don't know where yet but it's happening. We might get a pool table too. AWESOMENESS.
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(no subject) [Feb. 14th, 2005|07:41 pm]
FLaN
Alot of stuff happened. I'm too lazy to put it all down. K bai.
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(no subject) [Feb. 3rd, 2005|10:37 pm]
FLaN
Wonderful...

What Random Asian Are You? by WhoWhatWhen
Name:
You are
The Stereotype you match is,You play games on your graphing calculator.
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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